2011 is drawing to a close...which also means my time with a certain special someone is also winding down. We have just about a month left to go. He leaves January 23rd. I don't think I'm ready...he's totally ready! As each day passes, I realize a little more how much things will change and how hard it will all be. It's difficult to think about as well as talk about, but I know the rewards of this can be incredible! I am so excited for Aaron to start this journey and I don't think I've probably every told him that. (I should probably do that huh?!) He is an extremely smart and strong person and I can't think of a challenge that would be better suited for him. Mentally being challenged every day is something I think he wants more than anything...and this will for sure be a mental challenge each and every day. I want to be the "cheerleader", as I told my uncle this past weekend. I am ready to be his cheerleader for the next 2 years, or whatever it may take. Am I ready to not see his face every day, or not hear his voice every day? No...but I think I can deal with that as it comes. I am excited to receive letters in the mail and send him letters. We did this for a short period of time while he was in Madison, WI for school and opening the mail every day to look for a letter was exciting!
When I think about what we are about to go through, I think of my grandparents. My grandparents never met before they started talking. My grandfather was at camp to enter World War II and a buddy of his (who I believe happened to be married to someone in my grandmother's family) was writing to someone and offered up my grandmother's name for him to write to. (I could be a little off on details...but I know this is damn close!) He started writing and my grandmother wrote back. This is how their relationship began and blossomed from there on. They were married for over 50 years and happy! I have read some of these letters as my grandmother kept every single one she received from my grandfather, and she also has some that he kept from her. It's an incredible story and I'm so glad that she kept the letters. It's astonishing! :) I can't help but think of that when I think of Aaron leaving and what we're about to go through. Is it to this extreme? No, but it still has it's own excitement! :)
I may not be ready for this...but if I want to keep what I have...I better get ready! Every day I look for some type of inspiration or motivation that will show me how to be ready...I will need it every single day that he is gone. I am excited at what could possibly come in 2 or 3 years...the potential to go somewhere with an amazing person. Any suggestions on great ways to make a long distance relationship work would be much appreciated! :) I'm looking at a long 2-3 years!!!
Til next time...:)
Your grandparent's story is amazing. Almost reminds me of the couple in Amelie. I'm sure that if you can work through this then your relationship will indeed prove itself.
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