Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!
I wanted to do a brief post today. I am truly thankful for the family that I have in my life. It's a stressful time like now, that we are going through, that allows you to see what people are really made of. I have what must be the best family members anyone could ask for! They put others before themselves no matter what and are willing to do whatever it takes to care for them. I am also truly thankful for people who are understanding. I wouldn't be at home getting the chance to spend time with this special person if it wasn't for people who truly had a good heart and understood that some things are far more important!
November is Lung Cancer Awareness month. Please be aware of things you can do to keep yourself healthy. I love my aunt very much and hate that I have to see her going through this. Lung cancer...you are a bitch! We may not beat you this time...but we will beat you...and very soon!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Friday, Friday, Friday!
Ahhh Friday. No matter what, you always have a way of making me feel better about everything! :) I have entered back into the world of modern technology recently...SMARTPHONE! So happy to be back with my smartphone...however...it was kind of refreshing not to have one as well!
Laying in bed last night, while Aaron slept away next to me, I realized a little something about myself. And this may be why I am struggling currently in certain parts of my life...I am so used to always being good at something. I always had sports to fall back on...I excelled in the sports I participated in...and that made everything else I did worth it. I couldn't play sports if I didn't do well in school so that was my motivation. Now, what is my motivation??? I guess I want to feel great at something again and have that be my purpose for what I'm doing. I'm coaching..and my coaching relies on me being in school again...but it just doesn't feel the same as it did when I played.
The summer before I moved to Youngstown, I met up with a few of my aunts, cousins, mom, and sister to work out twice a week at mom and dad's pool. I felt like I was in heaven for this hour of working out with all of those wonderful women! I loved the feeling I got motivating them to push themselves past a point that they had never pushed themselves to before. I looked forward to those evenings every week, because I knew that the entire time I was there, I would thoroughly enjoy what I was doing and the people I was doing it with. I wanted to help them feel better about themselves, but I also wanted to kick their asses every night so that they could reach a goal they set for themselves. I am not sure if they actually reached their goals, but I know for a fact they felt better about themselves and were physically feeling better. Unfortunately, I left town, and they stopped. And I wish everyday that I could be back there still doing that with them. And not only did I enjoy motivating them, they motivated me to keep doing what I do in terms of keeping myself healthy. It was a win-win situation!
On a lighter note, I am getting my ass back outside and running! :) Oh cold weather how I hate you!!!! However, Youngstown has the best park to offer for a runner, Mill Creek! And I can't wait to go spend an hour or so in that beautiful place with just my running shoes and my thoughts! :) (oh ya and Aaron too! lol) Have a fabulous weekend! :) I know I will!!!!
Laying in bed last night, while Aaron slept away next to me, I realized a little something about myself. And this may be why I am struggling currently in certain parts of my life...I am so used to always being good at something. I always had sports to fall back on...I excelled in the sports I participated in...and that made everything else I did worth it. I couldn't play sports if I didn't do well in school so that was my motivation. Now, what is my motivation??? I guess I want to feel great at something again and have that be my purpose for what I'm doing. I'm coaching..and my coaching relies on me being in school again...but it just doesn't feel the same as it did when I played.
The summer before I moved to Youngstown, I met up with a few of my aunts, cousins, mom, and sister to work out twice a week at mom and dad's pool. I felt like I was in heaven for this hour of working out with all of those wonderful women! I loved the feeling I got motivating them to push themselves past a point that they had never pushed themselves to before. I looked forward to those evenings every week, because I knew that the entire time I was there, I would thoroughly enjoy what I was doing and the people I was doing it with. I wanted to help them feel better about themselves, but I also wanted to kick their asses every night so that they could reach a goal they set for themselves. I am not sure if they actually reached their goals, but I know for a fact they felt better about themselves and were physically feeling better. Unfortunately, I left town, and they stopped. And I wish everyday that I could be back there still doing that with them. And not only did I enjoy motivating them, they motivated me to keep doing what I do in terms of keeping myself healthy. It was a win-win situation!
On a lighter note, I am getting my ass back outside and running! :) Oh cold weather how I hate you!!!! However, Youngstown has the best park to offer for a runner, Mill Creek! And I can't wait to go spend an hour or so in that beautiful place with just my running shoes and my thoughts! :) (oh ya and Aaron too! lol) Have a fabulous weekend! :) I know I will!!!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Mixed Emotions
I received a very awesome message today in my facebook messages! Thank you so much...you know who you are! :) It's a simple message like this...or like the one a certain someone left as a comment to my last post...that makes you really think about things! You both really gave me a good smile!
I know that there are many people that have it far worse than I do...I am not oblivious to that fact. I just don't understand why we go down paths we do sometimes. Why am I in graduate school for biology? I don't really have an ounce of desire to do any type of research...but I have yet to figure out what I can do with this degree. Why didn't I go into business? I want to work in sports...that would have been the smartest of ideas! And it only took me 3 semesters of school to figure that out? What the hell was I thinking? I have no clue where this path is going to lead me...and where I'm going to end up come May. I hope I don't offend anyone...but I don't believe in a higher being...so I can't say well so and so will get me through this and take me where I need to go. My path is my choice...no one picks it for me. But how do we know whether or not it's the right path? What if it's the wrong one? Then what do we do?!
Today was a rough day for me in general. I am not good at coping with stressful situations...I don't hide my frustration well...and surprisingly I don't think I work well with others. Which this is something I thought I used to be extremely good at. Funny how things change! And I don't enjoy living alone!!! ahh!
One a side note...I surpassed my 1000 lunge mark on my quest for 10,000. I feel very accomplished in this...because I woke up today and was actually able to move! Whereas, all last week, I felt like someone put rocks in my leg muscles! Feeling good and strong today...lunges will commence for the day around 10:00 today so we'll see how good I really feel then. However, unexpected commitments came up today so I didn't get a run in and I am not happy about this. I was lazy this morning after my two hour tutoring session and went back to sleep...get out bed you lazy ass! I'll make up for it tomorrow with a kick ass treadmill workout. If anything, I will do my best to keep running and working out...because at the end of the day, I feel far more accomplished when I have done either of those two things.
Considering...starting a workout blog...where I just put up different workouts that I do, and offer advice to anyone who may want it. even though I am not a professional...I do enjoy it! We'll see...I'm kind of swamped right now with school and work...so maybe that will have to wait! :)
Again, thank you so much to the two of you that offered such sound advice....it really meant the world to me! :) And I hope you keep reading!!!
Have a terrific Tuesday! :) And a Wonderful Wednesday! :)
I know that there are many people that have it far worse than I do...I am not oblivious to that fact. I just don't understand why we go down paths we do sometimes. Why am I in graduate school for biology? I don't really have an ounce of desire to do any type of research...but I have yet to figure out what I can do with this degree. Why didn't I go into business? I want to work in sports...that would have been the smartest of ideas! And it only took me 3 semesters of school to figure that out? What the hell was I thinking? I have no clue where this path is going to lead me...and where I'm going to end up come May. I hope I don't offend anyone...but I don't believe in a higher being...so I can't say well so and so will get me through this and take me where I need to go. My path is my choice...no one picks it for me. But how do we know whether or not it's the right path? What if it's the wrong one? Then what do we do?!
Today was a rough day for me in general. I am not good at coping with stressful situations...I don't hide my frustration well...and surprisingly I don't think I work well with others. Which this is something I thought I used to be extremely good at. Funny how things change! And I don't enjoy living alone!!! ahh!
One a side note...I surpassed my 1000 lunge mark on my quest for 10,000. I feel very accomplished in this...because I woke up today and was actually able to move! Whereas, all last week, I felt like someone put rocks in my leg muscles! Feeling good and strong today...lunges will commence for the day around 10:00 today so we'll see how good I really feel then. However, unexpected commitments came up today so I didn't get a run in and I am not happy about this. I was lazy this morning after my two hour tutoring session and went back to sleep...get out bed you lazy ass! I'll make up for it tomorrow with a kick ass treadmill workout. If anything, I will do my best to keep running and working out...because at the end of the day, I feel far more accomplished when I have done either of those two things.
Considering...starting a workout blog...where I just put up different workouts that I do, and offer advice to anyone who may want it. even though I am not a professional...I do enjoy it! We'll see...I'm kind of swamped right now with school and work...so maybe that will have to wait! :)
Again, thank you so much to the two of you that offered such sound advice....it really meant the world to me! :) And I hope you keep reading!!!
Have a terrific Tuesday! :) And a Wonderful Wednesday! :)
Monday, November 14, 2011
Life Satisfaction
On Wednesday, I took a health screening at the university. Physically, my numbers are all excellent...super happy about this! Finally, it's not telling me I need to lose weight either! Thank goodness! Once you finish the actual health screening, you then fill out an online health assessment. I did this today. Answered question after question about how I take care of myself, what I eat, stress, how satisfied I am with my job, etc. When finished, it tells you the top 3 things to work on. What do I get? Life Satisfaction.
Life Satisfaction: I know I'm lacking in this area. How do I change it? Do I want to be satisfied? I don't feel like I ever want to be satisfied...otherwise I feel like there isn't much to look forward to from there. But maybe I am wrong. I come to work every day...I do my job...but I don't exactly love every minute of it. I like the times when it's just me with my athletes. Any other time, not that happy to be here. How do I change this? It's hard to look past certain things...and should you look past things that frustrate you about your job every single day?!
I want to wake up excited everyday to go to work. I know part of this is because I feel like every hour of my day is filled with something and I don't always get to do the things I want to do. Once I go home from work, it's time to tutor and do homework all night. Does that mean I actually do the homework? Not necessarily, but I know it's there and I have to do it at some point. I will be excited for the day that when I leave work, the possibilities for my evening are endless!!! I can work out for 4 hours if I want to...or I can sit and read an entire book about whatever I want! That will be here in May...but why can't I find satisfaction until that point?
How do you find satisfaction in what you do everyday? Are you satisfied with your life? Looking for ways to be satisfied...help!
Life Satisfaction: I know I'm lacking in this area. How do I change it? Do I want to be satisfied? I don't feel like I ever want to be satisfied...otherwise I feel like there isn't much to look forward to from there. But maybe I am wrong. I come to work every day...I do my job...but I don't exactly love every minute of it. I like the times when it's just me with my athletes. Any other time, not that happy to be here. How do I change this? It's hard to look past certain things...and should you look past things that frustrate you about your job every single day?!
I want to wake up excited everyday to go to work. I know part of this is because I feel like every hour of my day is filled with something and I don't always get to do the things I want to do. Once I go home from work, it's time to tutor and do homework all night. Does that mean I actually do the homework? Not necessarily, but I know it's there and I have to do it at some point. I will be excited for the day that when I leave work, the possibilities for my evening are endless!!! I can work out for 4 hours if I want to...or I can sit and read an entire book about whatever I want! That will be here in May...but why can't I find satisfaction until that point?
How do you find satisfaction in what you do everyday? Are you satisfied with your life? Looking for ways to be satisfied...help!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Challenge!
Due to a recent Nike ad, which you can find on my pages page (??), my boyfriend offered up a nice little challenge when he saw it. So I'm taking on that challenge! 10,000 lunges!! My goal is to finish this by Christmas which means I should do 400 lunges a day (200 each leg) for 5 days a week and I will be able to finish! I started yesterday...200 total (100 each leg). And yes...I am definitely feeling it especially since I did them right after a 4 mile run!
There's nothing like a good challenge. I am extremely competitive and love to have a goal to reach. I have a goal to run a marathon next year, and that challenge is going very well so far, as my long run is up to 10 miles. I plan to complete a half-marathon either this weekend or next (not organized though). Competition sometimes brings out the best in people...and I'm hoping this 10,000 lunge competition will bring out the best in me in a different light! Can I do it?! Hell ya! I challenge you to join me...and keep me posted on your success! I will do my best to make sure I keep you all updated regularly on my progress!!
Lunge away! :)
There's nothing like a good challenge. I am extremely competitive and love to have a goal to reach. I have a goal to run a marathon next year, and that challenge is going very well so far, as my long run is up to 10 miles. I plan to complete a half-marathon either this weekend or next (not organized though). Competition sometimes brings out the best in people...and I'm hoping this 10,000 lunge competition will bring out the best in me in a different light! Can I do it?! Hell ya! I challenge you to join me...and keep me posted on your success! I will do my best to make sure I keep you all updated regularly on my progress!!
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
We're off!
And so this journey begins...I'm not the most talented writer...but it will improve with time (I hope!). Recently, I have noticed a change in myself and feel it is time to find a meaning! I want things...but I don't know exactly what. I want to do things...but I don't know exactly how. I want to be successful...but I don't know at what. I want to find what defines me as a person...what makes me, me...and what makes me tick. What am I passionate about? I have no idea. Where do I want to be in 5 years? I have no idea. I feel like there are so many questions you get asked on a daily basis...and I have no idea how to answer them. I am hoping that this blog and writing will help me discover a little more about myself and what my true passions in life are as well as what I dream to do!
I also want to use this as a way for me to chronicle my daily/weekly goals, struggles, triumphs, etc. I want a place where I can openly talk about what I am doing and not feel judged! I want to tell you what I did today, and you truly enjoy hearing about it:) When I go for a run, I want to come in and say exactly what that run felt like and what went through my mind every step of the way. I want to just write about any and everything!!!!
I also want to use this as a way for me to chronicle my daily/weekly goals, struggles, triumphs, etc. I want a place where I can openly talk about what I am doing and not feel judged! I want to tell you what I did today, and you truly enjoy hearing about it:) When I go for a run, I want to come in and say exactly what that run felt like and what went through my mind every step of the way. I want to just write about any and everything!!!!
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