Tuesday, September 11, 2012

oh wow...long time coming

I can't believe it's been almost 3 months since I wrote last. I was going through a patch where I didn't feel like what I was writing or doing was worth a whole lot. I didn't have a job and was doing odd jobs like painting. While these were wonderful things to be doing, as I LOVE to paint, I didn't feel like I was accomplishing much in life. And I still question that on a regular basis. I have yet to really find my niche and what it all means. I don't feel like I really fit yet the way I would like to. I think about the people in my life and how happy they are in their jobs and how it seems to me like they know that what they are doing has meaning. I don't feel that yet. I am indeed educating the future of this world. And often times, I worry about that future! (EEEEEK!!!!!) But I am not sure I am really making a difference. I want to make a difference in someone's life! Even if it's just one single person! 

I heard from a fellow teacher the other day about a former student of mine. They were in my class during my second year of teaching. She is now attending a university and taking a biology course. Her mother told me that everything she is learning so far has been a review of my class! That made me feel like I was definitely doing something right. While hearing that was awesome (!!!!), I struggle to feel like I am at that same level 2 years later after I left. I don't feel like I am the same teacher as I was then and I definitely don't feel as though I am doing as good of a job. And that frustrates me! I know I must work my way back into this since I've been out for a little bit. And maybe the students are just different as well. We will see as time goes on.

My new job allows me more time to mess around in the "gym". I am trying some new things and trying to figure out what I want to do with myself! I want to be great at the things I do and the training aspect of myself is the same. I acquired my personal training license in July and have been working with some family members as well as non-family members. They have been steadfast through the times of hardly any equipment to the times with all the equipment we now have and my crazy trials on them! :) I hope they are enjoying what we do, because it is something I truly enjoy doing everyday! While sometimes it is hard to get myself out there everyday, as it is most of the time with anything, I know once I get done I will have loved every single minute of what I just did! And I want to pass that onto people and help them realize that working out and taking care of themselves can be so much fun, and hard work too! 

I will try to not go so long without a post from here on out! Maybe none of you are reading anymore...who knows! And I may even get back into posting some workouts on my other blog. We will see! :) Have a good one!